Life

It's almost been a year since the last time I've posted something on here. I don't know where to even start, but my life has been in one roller coaster ride. I fell in love, started a new life, moved out, got my heart broken, went back home, started a new job, and had a falling out with my bff. Yeah, one hell of a ride all right!

I definitely have learned a lot these past couple of months. The lessons that I learned is something I will keep in mind forever. For now it's hard to really get into details as to what happened, but I can say that I'm a better person because of what happened. I have no regrets, and with everything that's happened I've learned to love life even more.

I'm definitely back into blogging, and I pray to god that I will never loose my passion for writing :).

i try not too think about you, but it's hard. "coz you constantly invade my dreams, i guess i failed getting over you."

Peace and love, but sometimes you just gotta say what's on your mind even if it leads to losing someone whom you've considered a friend. Speak the truth no lies!

feels like insomnia

I haven’t slept in days, because of all these thoughts that I have in my mind. Current time is 4:22 am, and I’m wide-awake. I don’t know if it’s insomnia that’s keeping me up so late, or thoughts about certain things. I’ve had this similar problem before, but lately it’s gotten to the point where I don’t get sleepy at all. Before I would knock out by 2 or 3 am. These days I can stay up till 5, and have to force myself to fall asleep. There are many reasons as to why I’ve been having difficulties sleeping, and one of them is that of a boy. Yes, a boy is keeping me up all night. Funny thing is, I haven’t thought of him for a very long time but with recent events he’s been on my mind everyday. I guess the past does have a funny way of getting back at you, and it’s definitely what’s going on now. Thought I fully moved on, but I’ve been so caught up on keeping it at the back of my mind that it’s slowly starting to come back. When everything happened between this guy, and me I found it easier to just forget about it and not deal with what’s really going on. It probably also had to do with the fact that I was young, and didn’t know how to handle the situation we were in. Now I stay up at night, wondering how my life would have been if things were different? All I know is things happen for a reason, I don’t know what reasons I have but I really do need to sleep ;).

-xox

“For every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see it. For every truth there is an ear somewhere to hear it. For every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it.”

2nd chances?

Do you believe in 2nd chances? Forgiving someone who's hurt you in so many ways, and done things that a loved one shouldn't do? I'm a strong believer that a person can change his or her wrong doings, but find it hard to give someone a second chance. I think it has to do with everything that I've gone through in life, and the many bad experiences that's been thrown at me. It's hard to just move on from something and say that yeah it's forgotten let's start new. I don't think you can really start something new when there's already history of negativity. I think it would he hard to move on and live life like nothing happened. What I'm really trying to say here is that in relationships (bf/gf), once something has happened it's not easy to give second chances. I came from a relationship that ended wrong, and I decided to break it off coz it wouldn't be right for me to go back to that. But I get questions whether it was the right decision or should I have thought about it more? My answer to those questions, is yes I am doing he right thing and this is what's best for me. Yah at some point I also though about going back, but I thought about what would eventually happen in the long run and opted to stick with my first choice. I don't want to get into details as to what happened in that relationship, but I am a better person now coz of that experience. At the end of the day, you just have to do what you think is best for you and not worry about what other people will say. Eventually it's your feelings and emotions that you'll have to worry about and not those around you:).



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